Madame Fabulous this is an incredibly funny and full of witty criticism from different aspects….blah…..i enjoyed reading her blog….very smart and i admire her….i guess because she is just like me in real life "sarcastic" but, im that in a good way or when i get pissed….lol

KIA another form of smarts….cant get enough of what she wrote in her entire blog and archives!….soooo funny…..she is one helluva critic….watch out!

im here finishing up my blog yesterday and we’re watching Bambi II, its now on DVD and i wanna get the Lady and the Tramp….i love the Disney cartoon classics….i want my kids to see them also just like i did when i was little……gotta go, i hear them fighting in the background….

…after going to the toilet…lol! sorry im so open…i answered some surveys from my cousins here in my Friendster bulletin…i really like it, part of my life that makes u reminisce although, you wanna forget….especially back when i was in the philippines…i had to admit that i did have some sad and terrible memories back then especially dealing with some family…and as i’ve mentioned my first cousin Wanda…i lived in my grandmother’s house because my parents struggled in an apartment back in Mabolo, Cebu?  Not only that, we had to share almost everything in the apartment with a couple, they are nice anyways.  The living situation was horrible and i dont have but one friend…nothing to see outside but concrete wall and the smell of the sewage gutter stretched along the sidewalk right outside our door…for short life was hard….anyways my parents decided to live with my grandma, along with her other children in her two-story house…met my cousin Antonio aka INOT and the rest of the cousins and neighbors and later Wanda….whom who seldom spoke to me or play with me….i still don’t know what i did to make her hate me so much.  Eventhough I was a little girl in a house full of families, I know one thing for sure Wanda was the favorite among my Aunts and Uncles but not the ya-yas (slang for a maid), why?  Every Christmas time, she gets lots of nice girl toys like Barbie dolls and I on the other hand have been given several piggy bank or stuff toy.  I’m not jealous at all but, it hurts inside and I kept it to myself.  There was one Aunt though that was so sweet to me especially on that birthday I have she gave me a 14k bracelet….her name was Tita Baby….Tita Marisol (Madel’s mom), I was so thankful to her it was a gift that was one in a million!!!!!……..love you Tita!…..Anyways, up until then, me and Wanda’s friendship was so sour and long gone until the year when my mom went to the US and she made friends with me for those last short months before we were on our way to the US….it was really sad and it hurts….I’m not talking about just her but, think about it! first cousins that dont get along and we are both in the same bloodline? through her dad….i dont know what to say…..imagine even after all those years I’m still contemplating a little about not seeing my grandma and grandpa when they passed away or visit their graves…..i never will forget the times when my grandma always treat me and my cousins in the house to a lot of snacks like ta-ho, banana-cues, ice cream and so much more…stuff like these still dwell on my mind….my hometown that i left behind…..can you imagine yourself not having any close cousins around?  Aunts?  Uncles?….im just happy that i can still keep in touch with most of them and I do try, i can still remember how they look even now on their Friendster pics….wish i could turn back time but, now we’ve grown and hopefully will see each other again….i miss the holidays in Cebu and the Beaches….the sound of a native speaking pure bisaya lang, the smell of authentic lechon na naay soy sauce ug sibuyas….yum!….*sigh*…

*cindy’s thoughts—only thy self can fathom* overwhelmed with some farce cry of my solidarity and the uttermost silence buried in my heart and mind—if not down in the pit of my stomach, the lacking?  Incoherent with the obvious sense of fullfillment…what’s the meaning of family?  Hence love but, despise you in your face with no clear sincere reaction…lost in a burdened assumption…still the thought of thou ones left behind fill the endearing sense of satisfaction–words do bellowed to me and a sign of "I still remember you"…which gave a reassurance that I—have echoed far enough to those that really care—Cindy is still here and I give my one last ciao………………………………………

Back to reality:  I’m off today and tomorrow and ill probably will blog again about it…dot dot dot…annoyed?  I just like doing it….lol

Hmmm…back to work again tonight, i have to get ready by 9pm…it’s raining!…grrrr…yesterday night, my youngest toddler Andrew had a haircut…finally!…his daddy did it, he looked so much better and cute! The time it took was a struggle and we ended up fighting over him to be still.  He said to wait but, i guess he got tired of hearing me beg so he did it and it didn’t look pretty.  Andrew wasn’t in a good mood that night and its late…I should’ve known that, it’s my fault, i kept on bugging Alex to shave his hair off for weeks now.  He is the only one who wants to do his hair, he doesn’t want me to go to a barbershop—he has a certain style or way or something.  Anyways, this morning I was amazed, Andrew sat down by himself in the chair…so content and well behaved! while his daddy fixed his hair a little bit.  Well, Cindy what have we learned….to be patient.

my bisaya:  72 degrees na…unya kahapon tugnaw…mau na daghan kaayo nahi-lantan… ako, bag-u lang ko gi pa bakuna sa trabaho…nya na hilanat siguro last week…ay sus!  my tagalog:  Sabi daw meron daw cold front na naman papunta dito sa south Texas…naguguluhan ako sa mga temperature dito….akala mo February pa tapos mainit na…hay nakakainis!….<<my fave i say this even to my english friends at work….lol.  my english:  To conserve electricity this year, we’ll have to try to make it with using a fan for awhile instead of the airconditioner besides, its not like we’re going to get the Texas "heat wave" pretty soon, speaking of heat wave…i hate it, i have to admit…i mean who does?  When you lay in bed at night, even after taking a cool shower…da**! its still hot!  i often drag myself in the middle of the night towards the refrigerator and grab a few ice cubes and place it in my forehead…you’ll probably be asking me…why not turn the airconditioner?  Hello…I’ve set some specific time to have it turned off by 10pm at least and use the fan…don’t ask again….lol  Anyways, it’ll be alright…at least its better than living in Arizona.  My parents and my brother had driven past the state while they were on their way to California (i have to work @ local hospital bc no vacation time yet) they had taken videos of themselves (with bro holding cam) looking so exhausted and what appears to be so dehydrated, my dad in the background taking out a bottled water and poured it all over his head, my mom sitting inside the van and helped herself with the small battery operated fan…and my brother…being a clown as he was and i bet still is, went on and spit on a rock and watched and let it sizzle…yuck!  yeah, it was a little gross but, all i can think of is how terrible it would’ve been if I was able to go with them, i cant stand hot weather like that—its ok if its 85 or 90 but 110? 120? he** no!…lol…i guess it might be true u probably could cook an egg—sunny-side up or something…lol.  Excuse my bisaya o tagalog….

Widespread fog.  Visibility about a fourth of a mile.  Cool. 54C.  Early seven in the morning…stopped @ Micki D’s drive-thru.  Driving back….praying I won’t hit a deer….@ home:  Now that Im through with some of my important tasks for the day…yeah, i can do more now that im off… i cooked fried rice n some paksiw (a filipino food made from a porkie pig–look it up on the net) n deep fried some lumpia ….lol…basta! it should taste good and i took some time to add more pics bc walay lingaw karon my kids are taking a nap, wont be long ’til their busy bodies again…oh! i have to call my mom bc she has my "other" rice cooker…grrr the one im using takes so friggin’ longgg….i dont want to sit my a** all day on the computer so, i still have to clean our porch even if its still cold outside and water the indoor plants and flowers.  Its supposed to warm up somewhere dis week…cant wait.  I’m not ready for 90-100F temperature though….arrrrghhhh….

Just looking up some upcoming movies and OMG!…I remembered like around 2000, back then when me and Alex were dating I told him (who loves Playstation and PS2 games) that "Silent Hill"-a horror game (one of 3)….should become a movie and there it is! It came true just this year 2006….can u imagine that?!? In the PS game, it was the daddy now its the mother—the game was freakin’ scary i dont like it…anyways…its sooo darn cold!….right now its 37C with freezing rain and no snow yet, im craving for a fur coat right about now.  Being in Texas since ‘97 I got used to the heat ya’ll….while in NYC for 4 years, i was accustomed to waking up to a 10C or below temperature! not to mention the blizzard…anyways, i made some hot cocoa with marshmallows for me and my kiddies…we have fuzzy slippers on so, they are warm and cozy.  i was off yesterday and i’ll be back again tonight…grrrrrr.

  I’ll make dis one short, i have to do some more errands…last night, i got a surprise from my partner for life (not crime) "hubby" for my bday and another one this afternoon?  Woweee….very sweet dis year huh?….lol….my dearest brother Steely called me and left a voicemail but called back….he thinks im 26…nah not yet…we are 6 yrs. apart he was born 1987 while I’m 1981…just knowing he is doing ok in Georgia is like a gift to me, we all miss him very mucho kaayo much….still doin more cd burnin’ and danced to Sean Paul music video "Temperature" in my profile….de video is awesome…can’t stop sayin….go go go go go….i got cranked up!…try to shake dem booty but, dont shake dem too hard….LOL………anyways, u have to have a faster speed internet to be able to see the motion of the whole video ya’ll….later…

dis is my bday flowers…its real not plastic…lol…already 25 and hmmm…i looked in the mirror and see me as girl in a 90 yrs. old body…lol…anyways, I’m greatful that I’m still here and blessed to be able to wake up and see another day…

Below are celebrities that have birthdays on the same month with me!…Paris Hilton?  I’m a year older than her…how did dat happen?….February rocks!…oh and its Black History Month…Coretta Scott King…will be remembered not forgotten…

February 2005 Celebrity Birthdays

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!