~Straight up Country~

Since this morning, I know i have to do the same routine, tryin to call someone to pick up the kids when im not back on time. I’m so thankful to my neighbor across the street, they  are not even related to me and they could say something like "no problem!", "Just let me know!", or "Don’t worry about it"…now i know who to really give some christmas presents to—hehe.  I need to stop this hesitation feeling inside about this person in my head, this confusion even awkward at times and I really don’t understand why.  Hard to believe I had been accepted for years yet feelin like …we just met.  Everytime I see the name on my phone…i skip through a few then, hit speed dial…pretending when i start opening my mouth.  What else could i say but just have to be appreciative for the heck of it.  Sounds a little cold but that’s how i feel.  It’s really nothing like back home–my hometown, were every one at least have that hospitable attitude.  Why stress that saying, "It’s better to give than to recieve" when you are the opposite.  (2ndpersonae)I guess not many are like you "Cindy", that never ending wish when people are on the same page so they are not so hard to comprehend.